Journey to the Core of Love

Once upon a time, after graduating high school, I moved to Colorado and dreamed of having my own family. I was married at 18 and had three beautiful children. I so loved being a mom, but I realized this marriage was not a healthy relationship for my kids to learn from either. It was too often a volatile scene, and we were all wounded. Then an event happened that shifted everything. I was a passenger in a car accident, and sustained some serious bodily injury including concussion. I couldn't do anything for awhile but lay in the dark quiet of pain, avoiding light and sound. When I was finally able to move out of the basement, I started painting everything that I felt and I found myself again. When the yelling and anger resumed, I finally got the strength to go and found safety and support at a women’s shelter. I did love their dad, and he was injured too as a child. I now know I am the curse breaker, it’s a high honor not a shame.

The struggle...

did not end there, not at all. And I kept going. With no money, I put myself through college writing for every grant and scholarship I could find, while also working full-time. I worked as a social worker and advocate for women and children for many years, then I put myself through grad school and became a licensed therapist to serve others with what I had learned. I enjoyed that for several decades, specializing in trauma and somatic-based therapy helping thousands of people transform trauma and heal, as I continued my own personal and professional mastery.

Meanwhile, I also grew in my spiritual and intuitive practices participating and leading in circles…a living walk of faith, connection with God & nature magic. I later became an ordained Priestess accepting my role as a ceremonial leader, and it’s really just a natural shamanic arts way of life. I deepened my yoga and meditation practices, and I began dancing and having fun again. There was so much amazing magic and then life happened some more. I feel like it’s not all linear, it’s more like a continual unwinding into our true nature. This is a book coming!

Before I turned 50 years, I became suddenly debilitated with neurological symptoms that prevented me from walking and everything felt weird, like I was looking out from inside a wavy glass globe. My hands, arms and everything was buzzing and numb, I even struggled to grasp a spoon to eat. That’s when the biggest unraveling started. I ultimately had to let go of everything- my home & possessions, relationships, so much just to focus on my wellness. It took tons of money, everything I had and years of health providers, detective work and a whole lot of determination.

As I got a little stronger, I sent myself to a very special yoga teacher training in the jungle of Costa Rica. That’s where the journey of becoming Adhara began. I felt a powerful awakening there and found strength I didn't even know I had. When I got back to CO, I sensed that I needed to leave the city and find a quiet home I could afford. I moved alone to a rural area in Colorado, sure enough just in time for a world pandemic.

I felt blessed...

to be eating farm food and enjoying the outdoors and music, but I didn’t know anyone much and it was a scary time in a strange place. I did my best and fixed up my new nest, but then experienced another injury and concussion. I had to let go of the smart phone and got off of all medias, it was too much for me to manage cognitively and on every other level. Yet it was this experience that brought me to my beautiful core and all my creative gifts came flowing out. I definitely felt like a child and my vestibular system was messed up. I didn't have much support and it took awhile for the world craziness to settle down. Feeling exhausted and afraid but determined, I returned to the city I’ve lived in most of my life.

Here I have been blessed with my own personal team of amazing health providers and some close friends & community who cheered me on. We all need a good team for this long unwinding road! The greatest gift of those years was that while my brain went through the equivalent of a hard drive wipe out and rebuild, my soul was catching songs and singing and my refined somatic movement practices, magic & meditation saved me. I knew I could do that very well, so I stayed with my core along with a heart of faith and some Angels. The songs kept coming and I found myself again.

So here I am...

with all my wisdom and authenticity, a stronger than ever perfectly beautiful, powerful, sensitive and quirky me. I am grateful to be alive, well and free to share this wondrous treasure of experiences for all who seek authentic joy in their journey. I hope that our stories inspire each other to keep loving, playing and being the best you/me/us. That’s all that matters now.

If you can relate, I’d love to be your personal Somatic Wellness Professional- a playful loving, tried and true ally available to gift more magic & fun to your life with body-intuitive practices to liberate your true nature. I’m confident in saying I’m an expert with this stuff, a reborn version and I know this for sure- we need now more than ever to be on the winning team of Love.

Blessings and Namaste,
~Adhara